dimonds arent forever

i blame myself for this unexplainable feelings.Deep down inside i belive that i still love you.I love you more than you can ever imagine.But it hurts when i know that its fading away.It hurts to know that the sparks of love that i use to have towards you is disappearing slowly.Sooner or later,i might not have any feelings towards you.I do not need another time to break.All i need now is you.I need you to bring back those beautiful feelings that anyone can hardly find.Bring back love to me.

Am i selfish?ego? Yes i am for now.I'm selfish to keep you with me.I'm ego for not going to you and let you know what i really felt.To be honest,i felt terrible.Wondering around,acting like I'm enjoying every single second "forgetting you".Ahh,it maybe sound easy.but trust me.It took alot more for me tell you that "my love for you is fading away".Could this be real?Ohh,how i wish god can take those feelings away and replace it with love.

zulaikha zakaria

This song is for you.God!im TERRIFIED! :/

You, by the light

Is the greatest find

In a world full of wrong

You're the thing that's right

Finally made it through the lonely

To the other side

You set it again, my heart's in motion

Every word feels like a shooting star

I'm at the edge of my emotions

Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love

And I'm terrified

For the first time and the last time

In my only life

And this could be good

It's already better than that

And nothing's worse

Than knowing you're holding back

I could be all that you need

If you let me try

You set it again, my heart's in motion

Every word feels like a shooting star

I'm at the edge of my emotions

Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love

And I'm terrified

For the first time and the last time

In my only

I only said it 'cause I mean it

I only mean 'cause it's true

So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming

'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you

You set it again, my heart's in motion

Every word feels like a shooting star

I'm at the edge of my emotions

Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love

And I'm terrified

For the first time and the last time

In my only

my endless love

This unexplainable feeling when you felt lucky to have such a wonderful man to love and to love you back.Every single fights we've been through and tears that we shed,makes us stronger.Every single word you wisper makes me wanna belive that you and me will never end.We yell,we cried,we did so many remarkable things together and belive me when i say,you are the first guy that i ever write about :) I never write anything about any other guy.You are my first for everything.You are my baby love for now and ever.

life can do wonderfull things

Metro station did a wonderull job for doing a song entitled Seventeen Forever.Eventhough that song was known like long long time ago,but the lyrics was just beautifull.I love their chorus when they said "wont be seventeen forever,and we can get away with this tonight." Look how meaningfull that line is?That means,we cannot stop from getting older.Sooner or later,i wont be seventeen anymore and school will be no longer in my timetable.By that time,we wont know if we can even catch up with some of our classmates and teachers?Plus,i am obviously gonna be busy with college and stuff.Im just scared if i'll meet some new faces and new culture that i probably get into it to much till i forget my old friends.

My friends are not some bunch of kids who dumb their friends and get a replacement whenever they are having some missunderstanding with their friends.They are loyal,PRICELESS and very very caring which makes me love them soo much!

love,

zulaikha zakaria

we come and go

hello bloggers!

"Do not judge a book by its cover" says my mum before i went for Tm earth camp last friday.I was annoyed when my mum told me that.Well,i dont mind being friends with anyone but i hate it when i was the only one who's trying to be friendly.Come on!show some mercy people.Cant you see?im trying to be nice and friendly here.Cant you just play along?-.- You guys get me?what im trying to say here,its hard to find friends who you can get along in a few days.

But hey!I found a few friends from diffrent schools during that 3 days 2 nights.They are AWSOME.I cant belive i actually missed them :') they are just priceless.Eventhough we know each other for 3 days but they just proved to me that a strong bonds between friends,can exist even in couple of days.

love,

zulaikha zakaria

2 years anniversary

hello bloggers!i apologize for disappearing for couple of weeks.A week holiday obviously wasn't enough for me.I was having a good holiday except for school homeworks.Gosh!its killing me.

Moving on.For those who doesn't know that last 21st march 2011,my lover boy and i have officially and finally reach 2 years together!It wasn't easy i must say.Ups and downs we've been through.I never feel like I'm a good girlfriend because of some reason.But my lover boy is absolutely a loyal,understanding,loving,caring type of boyfriend.I still remember how he asked me to be his girlfriend 2 years ago.

It was a quiet saturday night and i was out with my friends and mikhael.We had dinner at taipan where it was my first time being there.After eating,he asked me to have a walk with him around the playground.So i insist and there i go,wondering what will he tell me.To be honest,the only thing that cross my mind was he'll tell me that has a girlfriend or something!I had butterflies in my stomach.While we were walking to the playground,we chat a lilttle bit but non of them seems make sense to me because i was scared and nervous in the same time!my hand was ice cold.As we reached at the playground,we sat at the swing.and mikhael start talking.He confessed to me that he liked me and i was blushing .So after he had done confessing,it was my turn to talk and i was speachless.i was puzzled with his words.he smiled and he asked my permission to hugged me.I was fine with because i thought it was a "friend type of hug".When he hugged me thightly into his arms,i felt like i have a crush on him.i felt like he is not just a friend.he is more then that.Then,he finally let the words out."would you be my girlfriend?" i was stunned and there i go.answering "yes" without any doubts.

Well to be frank,i was expecting this relationship will only last for a few months because i actually took 3 months to really fall in love with him.Yes,three months.I dont usually fall for anyone just in a blink of an eye.I do take time to really feel the "love".And now,i can ony say one thing.I love being with him.i really do :) i know maybe im too young to say this but this is real people.you people will never understand because you are not in my shoe.

last but not least, happy 2 years anniversary sweetheart:)

love,

zulaikha zakaria

broken

as we grew up,people around us managed to change.it hurts to see how they change like a blink of an eye.Who would ever thought that life can be so unfair?You were faithful,loyal to them and yes..trying to be a good friend i guess but it seems that it is not enough.never enough.Mum told me that maybe this was apart of god's plans.she have a good point there but i as a human,i have feelings.I hate saying goodbye because you people are just too sweet to forget.everything we've been though doesnt seems like you care anymore.