god,im thankful

Hello readers.

It has been awhile since i updated my blog ey?Moving on.In a few months from now,I will be sitting for SPM.And do you know what is that suppose to mean?it means that im about to face the world.Being an adult,as in 18 and above get myself thinking that time do flies.It feels like yesterday i entered my new school.Speaking about the past,lets just say..i do not have a clean past.Nothing is easy for me.i have to go through every each trials and challenges to achive something.I get jealous of those lucky people.But belive me when i say that the past actually make me who i am now.if i do not learn from the past,i wouldnt change.I will remain as the girl who is ungreatful for everything i have.

Love,

zulaikha zakaria

the sun is on your side

Well hello readers!

I've heard alot from my friends about arguments and disagreements among my friends lately.Therefor,I've decided to talk about 'holier than thou' attitude.Have you readers aver heard of that?basically,every each of us been trough this attitude before.It would be a lie if we deny that we did not have this attitude before."holier than thou" attitude is an attitude where sometimes we disdainful ourselves more than other people.Why do we do that?the answer is simple.because we did not know that actually we are also lack of everything.Yes,that is the problem with us humans.No one is perfect.We tend to condemn those people who we think is not good enough.We should evaluating ourselves before we do such thing.right? Maybe there're a few of people who think they have it all.And i named them as "the losers".These people actually think they have it all just because they're rich.Do you think money will last forever? Or some of them think that they can have whatever they want just because they have the looks?Have you forgotten that god can take everything in just a blink of an eye?Nothing is more powerful than God.Whats the use if you are beautiful,rich or maybe smart but you don't have a positive human sense in you? In my point of view,lets throw these negative vibes from nearing us.We are here for a purpose or maybe even more.

till then,

zulaikha zakaria

or is it the dancing juice

its school holiday and as usual..i am the happiest human alive! i feel so ALIVE when its holiday.Okay frankly speaking,yes..i get bored waking up in the afternoon and online and study.its just sooo boring though.Now i know how does i feel when SPM's over and you have nothing better to do then sleep and eat.Anyways,for this holiday,i did not go anywhere..except for my regular place to hangout with my friends which is Devis.Devis is some mamak stall at Hartamas and there's nothing interesting there except for the food! HAHA.Yes,i love to eat :D so i guess thats it peeps.

Till then,

zulaikha zakria <3

morning atmosphere

good morning peeps!its sunday morning and the first thing i did as i woke up today is smile.I dont know why i did that but probably its because of my comfortable bed.HEHE. Chloe slept over my house as i was home alone for approximately 4 days.I guess im just use to it though.moving on now,lets see..there is nothing to talk about anyway.im just "in the mood" to update my blog. if anyone of you readers was wondering how's my life so far?i think life is just wonderfull.i go through my days with a smile on my face and im just thankfull to god for everything i have.Well.life is not easy and it will never be.But we as humans,just drop the problems aside,take a deep breath and smile.It does helps alot when you actually smile eventhough life has been hard on you.like i said, SMILE is the best cure for every problem.

till then,

zulaikha zakaria

im holding on

you,me away from the city

After all these years,i finally knew what i really want to do when SPM's over .Maybe i wrote the same thing on my older post last time but as time goes by and I'm getting older,the things that i wanted to do in my future just changed.Well,not 100% changed.I'm still me but what i meant is that its just a little bit diffrent.okay.enough on these explanations. As you guys know that i would like to travel after SPM.Yes,travelling is still it but it is just slightly different.Last time,the place i always wanted to go is Paris because i was thinking to go shopping and bla bla bla.Instead of going Paris,I get myself thinking,why don't i spent my time at somewhere where i can find peace.I want to lay down on the sanddy beach and enjoy the sound of waves.Looking up in the sky,enjoying the sunset and just take a deep good breath of the clean air.I want to get away from the chaos city for awhile.Next,i want to be a healthier person.Go jogging regularly,eat healthy food and continue with my kickboxing classes.I want to be as healthy as possible so that i am phisically and mentally prepare for collage and studies.I was thinking to take law instead of medic.I have a good feeling in taking law.Even though there are tons of people who told me that law is very though but as for me,there is nothing wrong to try!

Ohh wait!i have something to say.I LOVE THE SCRPT.hehe.thats just random.eargh..whatever.So long now bloggers!

lots of love,

zulaikha zakaria

random stuff

i wanna be a billionaire

hey peeps!

Its bieber concert tonight and the ladies is getting wilder,crazier,and ultimate insane over him!Justin bieber is one lucky kid.He was once just an ordinary kid singing Usher's song in youtube and the next thing you know,he is one of the most richest kid in the world.He had won lots and lots of award in grammy and now his dating with a gorgeous young singer/actress,Selena Gomez.Ohh how i wish my life would be like that.Be as lucky as him.

I think i should try singing in youtube.Doing some cover of beyonce's song and post it in youtube.Who knows i probably get adoptedby Beyonce.Then,maybe I have the chance to be with Enrique?HAHA!im just joking :) Well freakly speaking,I think my life is good just the way it is.I have a great mother,an awsome friends and a cool boyfriend.

Love,

zulaikha zakaria

here we are again

hello bloggers,readers,silent readers..people :)

My day has been pretty tiring and sleepy.I felt SO restless and all i can think is my bed when i was at school this morning.And speaking about schools,i woke up late and i hate being late.The thing i hate the most is being late!Okay now,moving on.I assume that some of my followers or "silent readers" read my post entitled Sweetheart.Well,it must be confusing reading something that you don't even understand right.So let me just explain it briefly.Me and mikhael had a little fight and he cant seems to just let me explain to him about few things.Since i know that he reads my blog..silently,I decided to post my silly explanations in my blog.After all the fights and misunderstanding,as usual..we are back at the right track again!*yay :) So,I'm sorry if i have to post my personal problems here.I don't tend to do such thing actually but it happened.Again,I'm sorry readers.Hope you guys keep on reading my blog :)

Till then.

Zulaikha zakaria.

sweetheart.

dear mikhael,

Sweetheart,I never really have the chance to say this to you when we had our conversation just now.I was speechless and terrified if i would make any wrong decisions.During our conversation just now,you asked me to prove my love to you because you doubt it.Well,to be honest.I do not have answer for that.Like i said,i don't know where to start and i don't know how to end it.when it comes to "proving" something to someone,i just cant say much because i dont know what to do.After 2 years being together,I've realised that you don't really know me.I dont prove things to people.I wont jump out of the window for anyone,i wont run naked for anyone,i wont get on my knees for anyone and all those stuff except for my mum.I know you would think that I'm selfish.but its facts.Everytime i sacrifice anything for someone,they tend to leave me after that.

I dont use any sweet words to keep you with me.And trust me when i say i wont.its hard when i was expecting you to gain back your love on me and what i get was another way round.It hurts,seriously.I was hoping you to come to me and just say,"can we start all over again?".That's all was i hoping for.I dont ask you to come and bring me a bouquet of flowers,i dont ask you to write me a poem,and i dont even asked you to write me a song.All i need was a lil bit of afford.Its good to know that you've realised that im always the one who try to keep these relationship strong but i do get tired of it and i wanted to see if you could do the same thing too.All i can see now is just everything falling into ashes.I would love to start all over again if you give me the chance to do so.Is it too late to fix everything?im not gonna answer that for you because i know if i tell you the truth,you wouldn't even want to believe me.so i'll just leave the question for you to think about it.

lots of love,

zulaikha zakaria

we are cool like that

I realised that my friends and i has been living with this weird tradition among us,which was lepaking with some random people.We can hardly know that person and the cool part is that we don't even know their names sometimes.We talked,share stories,we crack jokes and at the end of the day,i got myself thinking,"whats that person's name again?" HAH! Well,when i asked some of my friends about how random were we actually, and their answer was simple yet it does make sense.The answer would be," because we are cool like that".Its true though.we love making new friends and so what if we don't even get their names?we are some weird girls who love doing random stuff and we learn from it actually :)

Another random things about us,was that we opened our windows in the car sometimes whenever we had our favourite "pimp" song playing on the radio.We sing our lungs out like nobody's business.And why do we do that?The answer is obvious.Because we are cool like that!Yes,we wear high heels like normal girls out there.We dated guys like a normal girls too,we wear high waisted jeans like those girls as well,but what makes us different is that we are cool in our own ways.Like my girls always said,"we are cool like that".

p/s: i actually said "we are cool like that" for 3 times in this post?my oh my..

Love,

zulaikha zakaria

dimonds arent forever

i blame myself for this unexplainable feelings.Deep down inside i belive that i still love you.I love you more than you can ever imagine.But it hurts when i know that its fading away.It hurts to know that the sparks of love that i use to have towards you is disappearing slowly.Sooner or later,i might not have any feelings towards you.I do not need another time to break.All i need now is you.I need you to bring back those beautiful feelings that anyone can hardly find.Bring back love to me.

Am i selfish?ego? Yes i am for now.I'm selfish to keep you with me.I'm ego for not going to you and let you know what i really felt.To be honest,i felt terrible.Wondering around,acting like I'm enjoying every single second "forgetting you".Ahh,it maybe sound easy.but trust me.It took alot more for me tell you that "my love for you is fading away".Could this be real?Ohh,how i wish god can take those feelings away and replace it with love.

zulaikha zakaria

This song is for you.God!im TERRIFIED! :/

You, by the light

Is the greatest find

In a world full of wrong

You're the thing that's right

Finally made it through the lonely

To the other side

You set it again, my heart's in motion

Every word feels like a shooting star

I'm at the edge of my emotions

Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love

And I'm terrified

For the first time and the last time

In my only life

And this could be good

It's already better than that

And nothing's worse

Than knowing you're holding back

I could be all that you need

If you let me try

You set it again, my heart's in motion

Every word feels like a shooting star

I'm at the edge of my emotions

Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love

And I'm terrified

For the first time and the last time

In my only

I only said it 'cause I mean it

I only mean 'cause it's true

So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming

'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you

You set it again, my heart's in motion

Every word feels like a shooting star

I'm at the edge of my emotions

Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love

And I'm terrified

For the first time and the last time

In my only

my endless love

This unexplainable feeling when you felt lucky to have such a wonderful man to love and to love you back.Every single fights we've been through and tears that we shed,makes us stronger.Every single word you wisper makes me wanna belive that you and me will never end.We yell,we cried,we did so many remarkable things together and belive me when i say,you are the first guy that i ever write about :) I never write anything about any other guy.You are my first for everything.You are my baby love for now and ever.

life can do wonderfull things

Metro station did a wonderull job for doing a song entitled Seventeen Forever.Eventhough that song was known like long long time ago,but the lyrics was just beautifull.I love their chorus when they said "wont be seventeen forever,and we can get away with this tonight." Look how meaningfull that line is?That means,we cannot stop from getting older.Sooner or later,i wont be seventeen anymore and school will be no longer in my timetable.By that time,we wont know if we can even catch up with some of our classmates and teachers?Plus,i am obviously gonna be busy with college and stuff.Im just scared if i'll meet some new faces and new culture that i probably get into it to much till i forget my old friends.

My friends are not some bunch of kids who dumb their friends and get a replacement whenever they are having some missunderstanding with their friends.They are loyal,PRICELESS and very very caring which makes me love them soo much!

love,

zulaikha zakaria

we come and go

hello bloggers!

"Do not judge a book by its cover" says my mum before i went for Tm earth camp last friday.I was annoyed when my mum told me that.Well,i dont mind being friends with anyone but i hate it when i was the only one who's trying to be friendly.Come on!show some mercy people.Cant you see?im trying to be nice and friendly here.Cant you just play along?-.- You guys get me?what im trying to say here,its hard to find friends who you can get along in a few days.

But hey!I found a few friends from diffrent schools during that 3 days 2 nights.They are AWSOME.I cant belive i actually missed them :') they are just priceless.Eventhough we know each other for 3 days but they just proved to me that a strong bonds between friends,can exist even in couple of days.

love,

zulaikha zakaria

2 years anniversary

hello bloggers!i apologize for disappearing for couple of weeks.A week holiday obviously wasn't enough for me.I was having a good holiday except for school homeworks.Gosh!its killing me.

Moving on.For those who doesn't know that last 21st march 2011,my lover boy and i have officially and finally reach 2 years together!It wasn't easy i must say.Ups and downs we've been through.I never feel like I'm a good girlfriend because of some reason.But my lover boy is absolutely a loyal,understanding,loving,caring type of boyfriend.I still remember how he asked me to be his girlfriend 2 years ago.

It was a quiet saturday night and i was out with my friends and mikhael.We had dinner at taipan where it was my first time being there.After eating,he asked me to have a walk with him around the playground.So i insist and there i go,wondering what will he tell me.To be honest,the only thing that cross my mind was he'll tell me that has a girlfriend or something!I had butterflies in my stomach.While we were walking to the playground,we chat a lilttle bit but non of them seems make sense to me because i was scared and nervous in the same time!my hand was ice cold.As we reached at the playground,we sat at the swing.and mikhael start talking.He confessed to me that he liked me and i was blushing .So after he had done confessing,it was my turn to talk and i was speachless.i was puzzled with his words.he smiled and he asked my permission to hugged me.I was fine with because i thought it was a "friend type of hug".When he hugged me thightly into his arms,i felt like i have a crush on him.i felt like he is not just a friend.he is more then that.Then,he finally let the words out."would you be my girlfriend?" i was stunned and there i go.answering "yes" without any doubts.

Well to be frank,i was expecting this relationship will only last for a few months because i actually took 3 months to really fall in love with him.Yes,three months.I dont usually fall for anyone just in a blink of an eye.I do take time to really feel the "love".And now,i can ony say one thing.I love being with him.i really do :) i know maybe im too young to say this but this is real people.you people will never understand because you are not in my shoe.

last but not least, happy 2 years anniversary sweetheart:)

love,

zulaikha zakaria

broken

as we grew up,people around us managed to change.it hurts to see how they change like a blink of an eye.Who would ever thought that life can be so unfair?You were faithful,loyal to them and yes..trying to be a good friend i guess but it seems that it is not enough.never enough.Mum told me that maybe this was apart of god's plans.she have a good point there but i as a human,i have feelings.I hate saying goodbye because you people are just too sweet to forget.everything we've been though doesnt seems like you care anymore.

hey ley william

she is gorgeous isnt she?and that is obviously the reason why guys go CRAZY about her including my lover boy! haha :)

I just wanna go home.I wanna go home :'( let me say this one more time.

I WANNA GO HOME.

little things i love

faith in me

hey peeps!

As a Muslimah,we ladies have our limits when it comes to clothes and fashion.We cannot wear anything tight that shows our body shape and we are not even allowed to show any of our aurat.

I'm trying to cover every inch of my aurat starting with basic stuff like pray,in another word,solat.No point of covering your aurat but you don't do the solat.Pretending to be innocent by wearing hijab(tudung),doesn't bring you anywhere.YES, wearing hijab is a must but the 5 times a day prayer is more important.

If i could combine these 2 things,covering my aurat and do my prayer..i believe that my life would be more peaceful :)

love,

zulaikha zakaria

you only live once

hey peeps!

have you ever imagine how would your life will ever end?Come and think about it,its scary isn't it?imagine if you are not even prepare to leave the world.I have 1 thing i would like to have before i die.i want to have a family.My own happy family.A loyal husband and a perfect child would be enough.I wouldn't ask anything more than that.Money,fame and all that cannot buy this perfect family from you.Happiness is priceless.All i want is a real happy family.

The reason why i choose this to be the only thing i would like to have before i die is because i don't know what and how is it suppose to feel to have a real family.loving and caring?i was born in a way different type of family.We are independent in our own ways.To those who have a perfect family,be thankful :) family is the only one who will stand for you during your worst days.trust me,one day when any of them left,the world will never feels the same anymore.

love,

zulaikha zakaria

These Hands Weren't Meant For Us

Lately i felt like im invisable.Well,basicly i felt lonely because my mom is away for two weeks and my bestfriends are busy hanging out without me.my boyfriend?dont even ask.Sometimes,you just hope that these people will just call and talk.I know life is fun without me but hey!dont make it soo obvious.im a human too.i have feelings.enough of loosing my trust,but dont make me loose hope on you guys.I need my mom right now.she always make me feel better.

it seems like at the end of the day,all that is left its just me.thats life right?bestfriends come and go,boyfriends come and go.non of them stays except for one.Allah stays and never leave:)

the best part of me is always YOU

hey peeps!

i've recently went through a hard time deleting some old pictures in facebook.I kept some of them in my laptop of course.Among all the pictures,the one that i remain speachless for quite a long time is "one big happy family" picture that was tagged long long time ago.I've read the comments that was sent by a few of us.dont know why my tears start running down my face.I think i miss them.I miss us.

According to a few of us,its not impossible for us to be one big happy family again.I think they are right but it wont be the same.The pain we've been through wont just disapear like that?i belive that one day we will found the real happiness that every each of us been searching for.The past is memories and the future is waiting for us.yes,time will heal :)

Anyways,have you ever felt like there was a butterflies in your tummy when you met your boyfriend eventhough is has been like years being with him?HAH! i felt that way when i met my lover boy last saturday.His hair is short now and he look like the old goody mikhael that i've met few years ago.maybe that's the reason why i have butterflies and stuff.that is really weird!You know what's funny?the funny part was i felt like i just get together with him!whenever i hugged him,i dont feel like letting go,when he looked at me i will start blushing again?what the hell is wrong with me?its gonna be 2 years by next month and i still have this akward,weird feeling infront of him?

Ohh well,i think that was just me.Whatever it is,i still love him eventhough it has been awhile being with him and the word bored never cross my mind<3

love,

zulaikha zakaria

this is it

I marked today as the day of "i will miss my school once i've finished my SPM".Weird right?I never expect i would ever say this but yes,life has been great to me.Im starting to fit in with my school mates.The story goes like this.I woke up today and i felt SOO lazy to go to school.I felt tired and my leg is aching but i dont know why,somehow i just want to force myself to get my ass off the bed and just go to school.feeling excited to know how's my school gonna be like today.Homeworks do kills me silently but that is not gonna be the reason why must i skip school.I know maybe one or two among you readers will be laughing when you read this.Maybe you guys gonna think what in the hell happend to me right?To be frank,the answer is i dont know.i repeat again.I DONT KNOW.

Maybe this is what you call senior year.Welcome to senior year ika:)

It has been awhile since i update my blog huh.I used to get really addicted to blogs.I keep on updating,typing on my blog.But now,i dont really have time for that.Time is running like blink of an eye so why should i waste it.Perhaps i should get a bio or history book and read right?HAH! i say that for fun actually.To be frank,i dont even read bio or history during free time.I think i should start doing that.great ika -__-

i should get myself to bed now!i have school tomorrow :) goodnight!

love,

zulaikha zakaria

i heart bandung

hey peeps!

Anyone that never visit Bandung,i suggest you people get the flight tickets to bandung ASAP! Bandung is awsome i must say.Maybe the place was chaos and packed of people from all walks of life but still.I LOVE IT .bandung is a shopping heaven! You can get expensive looking tops or jeans with just RM 30/40.You'll be suprised when you see those nice tops and bottoms there!well,i know im suprised! :)

My favourite food there was 'tempe goreng' and 'sup buntut'.It maybe sounds weird but TRY IT! once you've try it,you will get addicted to it..like i do.I cant stop drinking 'es teh manis' since it taste soo good!it taste something like jasmine tea but BETTER! (Y) .

Okay now,here comes to the fun facts.80% of indonasion girls are pretty.I went to Jakarta as well and honestly,i felt i was the ugliest among all!their face was flawless.The hair was long wavy thick.another word to describe them,gorgeous.Now, the fun part was the mans are HOT too.they have the looks basicly.I dont know how to describe them.speachless!

To me,bandung is like the bigger version of bangsar.And the reason i say that is because the shopping places like their factory outlets looks like those shops in bangsar.My all time favourite shop there was Grende and Rumah Mode.GOD!everything seems soo cheap there!Even Tutti Fruitti is cheap there!HAHA!

so guys,do visit bandung because you will never regret it :) All i know,after my SPM..i am soo going there AGAIN!

love,

zulaikha zakaria

YOU tell me shit now.

There's a story that i wish i could share with my children one day.I've been living my life with 8 people which i admited as my sisters and brothers.We did a lot of stupid things but yes,we always know our limit.We crack jokes all the time and the word "goodbye" never cross our mind.Everything seems soo perfect when we have each other.

Who would ever belive me if i said we drove to sepang at 2 in the morning and come back home at 7 in the morning just because we dont know where to go.There was just soo many memories that i cant get it off my mind.I feel like screaming my lungs out.I feel like going infront of yusufe and just wake him up from this shit.I feel like going infront of that lady and teach her a lesson.I feel like take a time mashine and make things right again.I feel like asking william to just stay.And i wish i could take the pain away from any of my girls..Non of us deserve to get hurt like this.

What happen to the future shits we talked about.One big happy family?This shits actually give me such a high hopes.Once that person were here for you,and the next thing you know they could just make you speechless for a long time.I was dumbfounded of this shits that they create.I felt depressed,displeased,frustrated,and terrified.Heartless is the right word to decribe you people.

The word sorry can never make things right again.The mistakes that you did by leaving us,is the biggest mistake you could ever did in your life.